Yoz ppl.. im back le.. well well.. look at the time now.. its 3am in the morning and MY.. wat am i stil doing?? haha.. i juz finished preparing for my lab test tmr.. oopS.. it shd be todae cuz its monday now.. anyway my lab test is at 3.10pm.... haha.. actually i dun nid to prepare much.. basically juz rmb the format and noe wat to do can le.. juz cant afford to haf any cockups... cuz me now striving to score a DISTINCTION in JAVA programming... cuz my common test i already got a 98/100... then if the common test in 30 % i redi got 29% le.. haha... then if i score in my lab test.. which has a heavier weightage of 40%... and if i got a full marks.. haha... i redi haf a A in my pocket le.. now juz hope to really score.. cuz anything is possible.. rite?? mus haf this mentality so tt for my maths i wont fail.. juz hope so ba.... haiz.... really scared of maths only... cuz maths has always been my weakest link so im afraid tt this weakest link will prove fatal to me... i dun wish tt to happen... so i juz gonna work hard... well.. now i finally wake up le.. cant continue on the way tt i do things.. muz really wake up man.. cuz now yr 2 then more stress on my brain..... really hope my brain cells wont dry up.. haha..

anyway... i was kinda depressed for the last few mths... aft she and me broke up.... evrtime watch couple walk by me.. i wld really envy them.. and hope tt they wld be together 4ever... i haf been tinking of her... nitez aft nitez... tinking of those times where we were so happy.... and juz been in each other's company means the whole world to me.. it was evrth... it was lyk im in paradise.. evrtime tink of those times... my tears juz cant hold back but flow dwn my cheeks lyk Niagara falls.... was really tinking y up till now i still dun haf the courage to tok to her.. evrtime really wanted to open my mouth and juz speak to her.. even juz a simple HELLO will do... but my voice juz wont come out.. its lyk a radio juz suddenly malfunction.... whenever i tok to my frenz i haf no prob.. but when it comes to HER.. im really lost for words... but whenever i see her smile so cheerfully... i told myself tt if i really luv her i shd juz let her go.... let her be happy... cuz if she's happy.. i will feel happy as well.. so now the only thing i can do is juz wish her all the best and wish her happy.... all i can do is juz watch her smiling... even though she initiated the break up... i really haf no complaints at all... cuz at least we loved each other once b4.. juz hope tt she will rmb the times we spent.... cuz i haf rmb it by heart and will nv 4get wat we did and said.... its now a memory.... a memory which belongs to both of us.... and i couldnt fulfil my promise to HER... tt is being wit her and loving her 4ever... i really tried to change for her sake... but the time juz isnt on my side... she couldnt witness the changes i made for her.... but no matter wat.. if SHE is really happy then i haf no regrets too... juz hope tt the rest of HER journey would be good.... and i will always pray for her and wish her good luck as well...... juz wish HER all the best ba... and hope she could really find sm1 whom she really loves with no regrets...

anyway... i tink i shd stop... cuz my tears haf been flowing out lyk a nv ending waterfall.... the tears juz keep flowing... and flowing.. and flowing... and flowing.... well... juz hope tt SHE could read tis... even though i noe she may nv read it.... but i really do hope so.... juz to let her noe.... okie then... tink i shd retire nw.... eyes are swollen now.. juz hope my frenz wont notice anything....

Signing off
Alex Lao (first time i sign off using my real name... and for info... this blog here took me a watery 30 mins to write... )

*Life's journey are full of twist and turns. It doesn't matter how many twists and turns there are as long as you know that it is the correct pathway.*

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